When I say the word spring, no doubt, many different pictures or thoughts come to one's mind. Perhaps, one thinks of flowers in bloom, buds on trees, rain gentling coming down watering the earth, butterflies, or life. When I think of spring, I immediately think of change. The cooler weather slowly and gradually warms up. The bare trees begin to bloom. Even the caterpillars, themselves go through a dramatic change into a butterfly during this beautiful season.
This spring seems to be bringing about a lot of change in my life, as well. This spring, in fact in only 9 days, I will be graduating from college. This will be a huge change for me. School is truly all I have known. Beginning with kindergarten I have been in school every year of my life. Immediately after highschool I enrolled in college. And now I am watching my schooling career come to an end. So, many different emotions are beginning to come over me. One without a doubt is joy and bliss. I have never truly enjoyed school, I like being with my friends. But to put it nicely, I look forward to summer break starting the first day of school. But now thinking that in just a few short days I will forever walk away from school; it all seems a little foreign to me. No more tests, no more quizzes, no more forced reading assignments, no more papers, projects, or speeches. Life without school will definitely be a huge change for me
Another change this spring is bringing me, is I will beginning a new job. Last Wednesday I put in my two week notice at Wee Care Child Development Center. As I presented my boss with my resignation letter my hands shook and my voice trembled as I told her that I simply needed more hours than they were able to give me, therefore after graduation I would be leaving them. It was so difficult to tell my coworkers. This week I have begun to tell some the parents of my young students that I have known for four years that my last day will be next Wednesday. Today as I told a parent I watched as tears began to form in her eyes. I realized how much of a change this would be for me. I have been working at my current job since the day after I graduating from High School. What a change it will be to say good bye to all my children, parents, and coworkers.
Change has never been easy for me. In fact, I'm one of those people who often finds myself ordering the same thing at a restaurant time after time...why, because simply I know what I like and I don't want to be disappointed. Yet, this spring God has begun to show me that change is exactly what is best for me. I have seen God take a hold of all of my plans and change them around.
My life may not be going exactly the way I planned, but I know it is going exactly the way God planned it. Therefore, as I look ahead I am filled with excitement because although I have no idea what my future holds, I know my God is in control, guiding each and every one of my steps.