Sunday, June 10, 2012

All that she ever wanted and more

I remember the very first time I met him. In fact, I remember the very first thought I thought about him.  
We met up in Chicago for a Photography Shoot.  Upon meeting him, he immediately offered my sisters and I a coffee on him. As we entered the coffee shop- he held the door.  I immediately made a mental check mark.  
Gentleman

Unbenoticed to this poor fellow he was definitely under my extreme interrogation.  For the rest of the day I scrutinized every step that he made.  However, in the process I made several observations about him.  I noticed how well he treated his sister.  I once again made a mental check mark.
Loves his family- will one day be a "family man"


The rest of the day my little mind was furiously at work. Did anyone else see it? I mean, was I the only one who saw that this young man and my big sister went absolutely perfectly together.  I remember scheming to get them in a picture together.  I knew she would thank me one day.

Eventually, that young man, Jack, and Nicole started dating.  Luckily I was able to tag along on a few of their outings.  I remember one of their very first dates: Bowling!




Once again, I simply sat back and observed. On the way home, Nicole seemed to have a gleam about her; I actually think she was glowing!  We drove home in silence.  Nicole no doubt gloating over the fact that she had just had one of the most amazing days ever.  However, I on the other hand began to go back in my mind to a several  years before.  I thought back to the times when my sisters and I would all come together in one room and have our slumber parties together.  Somehow the topic of "boys" always came up.  We would all share and discuss the kind of man we wanted to marry.
As I went through her list mentally in mind I once again began to make mental check marks.
I smiled to myself- He is a perfect description of her list


A short time later Nicole and I traveled to Jack's place for a game night. I once again had a great time playing games and getting to know some of Jack's siblings.  However, I enjoyed quietly sitting back and watching Jack and my sister.  


Something about Jack brought the kid out in my sister.  I noticed He could make her laugh like no one else.  I noticed how he would simply look at her and smile to himself, as if he were saying- "lucky, lucky me"


On the way home Nicole and I chattered, she simply could not stop speaking about him. He had the ability to make my sister the happiest woman in the world.  And that's when I determined- I completely and entirely approved of this young man in my sister's life.


A few weeks ago, Jack popped over at our house and surprised Nicole.  He then took her to the dunes for a picnic.



There at Lake Michigan he asked my sister to be his wife.


You know, in my mind I had a plan of exactly how I wanted to react when I heard my sister got engaged.  In my mind I wanted to jump up scream and hug her.  However, when she walked into the door and screamed, "I'm engaged!" A lump came in my throat.  Instead of jumping up and screaming like I had every intention of doing, I simply sat there and starred.
And then I realized that Jack was truly all my sister ever wanted and so, so much more.


Congratulation Jack and Nicole!
I love you both with all my heart

Saturday, June 2, 2012

College Graduation 2012 in Pictures

Graduation Rehearsal:
Preparing for the Big Day





The Big Night








Open House
The Day after my Graduation 


Grandma and Grandpa


Aunt Carolyn












Saturday, May 19, 2012

College Life

I cannot believe that I have now successfully finished my college education.  These last four years seem to have flown by.  Looking back over my last four years of college there are so many lessons that I have learned.  I entered into my freshman years of college with my life completely planned out. As a 18 year old, I could have written a timeline of my life...I knew who I was going to marry, when I would marry, what I would be doing, and where I would be living. I knew exactly what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.  My plans were all good, however I never imagined that perhaps God had different plans for me. 

Freshman Year 2008-2009

College World Series




My freshman year several of my friends and I acted out a play of the life of Jim Elliot.  We then were able to preform for a group of teenagers during our annual Empowered Youth Conference.



My first of four Christmas Lights Activities.  Enjoying my time in Chicago with some new friends


I was also able to spend the first semester of my freshman year along side of my big sister and her girlfriends.  I had so much fun tagging along with her.



Bowling and dinner trips with friends


My sophomore year was much of the same.  I spent much of my time with new friends, still wrapped up in My dreams and My plans.  However, at the end of my sophomore year it was as if God stripped away all my plans. I did not understand why.  And at times I wondered what God was doing in my life.  Why would God take away all that I held dear?  I became angry...

 Sophmore Year 2009- 2010

College Fun


Liz and I


My junior year I spent trying to fill my void.  I finally accepted that God had taken away all my plans and I realized it was for the best.  However, instead of learning to rely fully upon God I began to develop new plans.  I talked to my boss at my job and planned out my future with her.  Together we planned my schedule for the next two years of college  We then discussed how I would take a full time position the day after I graduated from college.  
I once again made new friends, however my hands were still tightly around my own plans...I was holding onto my life and simply wouldn't let go. 

Junior Year 2010-2011

Watching a flag football game.


Annual Christmas Lights Activity


 Girls Dorm Christmas Party


My junior year I even attempted sewing a bit.  Honestly, haven't sat at a sewing machine since then :)




My Senior year brought so many changes into my life.  My first semester I was simply BUSY!!! I student taught 7th and 8th grade American Republic as well as 12th grade Public Speech.  At the beginning of this semester my family and I made a move to a beautiful new home.  I was always working, preparing for classes, grading papers, and unpacking!

Senior Year 2011

 My final Christmas Light Activity



My last day teaching my 7th and 8th grade History students


As I look back over my last semester of college something changed in side of me.
Toward the end of the year I began to have several difficulties arise.  I had no where to turn to, so finally I was forced to take a moment from my busy life and look upward.  
I began to have many difficulties at work, I was lied about by a fellow coworker.  I then watched as my hours at work began to dwindle down to nothing.  I began to worry and fret about what I would do after graduation.  My life was not going according to my plans.  I went to my boss and asked about what would happen after graduation, she told me I may not get those promised 40 hours a week.  I was so frustrated! And at some point I began to doubt everything.  I doubted the love of God.  I could not understand why a loving God could not grant me MY desire.

Then through a series of events I learned a simply yet life changing truth.  God Loves Me,God loves me  sooo much.  He loves me more than I can ever comprehend.  When I recalled that truth, my entire mindset changed...I realized that God wasn't out to make my life miserable, instead He had something far better in mind for me.  
I remember the day I finally let go of it all. I went through all my dreams and gave them all over to God.  I remember verbally telling God that He now had everything, I was completely done planning my life out , it was now completely up to Him.
Since that day, I no longer fear my future...why should I?  My future is not only in the hands of a all knowing and all powerful God but also in the hands of a Loving God.  A God who wants only the very best for me.

"God would never take something away from me without the intention of replacing it with something better"

These last few months have been filled with some pain.  At times I cried out to God and asked Him what He was doing in my life.  At time I still question God.  However, the moment I let go of my plans God showed Himself to me.
God granted me with an great new job- a job that has provided me with 40+ hours a week.
God removed some friends from my life however He has replaced them with amazing friends that share the same mind with me and only desire to lift me higher.

At times, I sit quietly in my room and wonder...what does my future hold?  However, now..I do not fear my future...because it is no longer in my hands, rather a God who loves me with immeasurable love is planning my life out.  Therefore, I can rest assure, that as long as I leave my life in His hands...my future will be bright.

Senior Year 2012

Navy Pier




My last activity ever: Turkey Run State Park.


I thoroughly enjoyed being able to spend my last year with my little sister, Lauren



Hiking some rather intense trails...


May 17, 2012: College Graduation


As for God....His way is Perfect!
I am so excited to see what God has in store for me