On August 14, 2012 my life is going to change in so many ways.
You see, Tuesday morning I will be moving to Ohio.
This came about so quickly it has hardly had time to register. Three weeks ago I received a call from a Christian Academy in Ohio. Honestly, when I received the call I never expected that I would actually say yes. However, I decided to take the trip over to Ohio to look at the school and church. Upon my arrival the pastor showed me around the facilities. I was highly impressed by all I saw. However, I knew I would never make a decision based on simply what I saw I would have to meet the people of the church and school before I could make a decision. Sunday morning as a walked into the church I was greeted by person after person- with great big hugs- which is totally against my Hoosier stiff personality. As I sat in the church I simply began to pray and ask God, "Lord what will you have me to do?" I had already made up my mind that I would do whatever God wanted me to do. As I sat there it was as if God himself came down next to me wrapped His arms around and filled me with a deep peace that this is exactly where he wanted me to be.
There was something about that small Christian school and something about that small country church that simply put a fire deep inside me.
Now, I sit here just a few days before leaving on a life changing adventure, so many different emotions have begun to take over me.
First, I am filled with absolute excitement. Because I know for sure without a doubt that Ohio is where God wants me to be. Day after day God has showed me in a very real way that He is coming along with me. I am so excited to put my teaching into use and actually stand before my own 4th and 6th grade students and touch the future through their little lives.
Secondly, I am absolutely without a doubt scared to death. I am terrified to be a first time teacher in a strange new place where I know no one. I am scared to death to be out on my own for the first time in a strange small country town.
Thirdly, I am sad. There are so many things I will miss. I will my family, friends, my church, and everything about my beautiful home town. I will miss it all. And I know at times I will be homesick. Terribly homesick- Indiana is all I have known.
Sometimes, all of these different emotions rise up and begin to rage within me. Yet, every time I begin to doubt and wonder "will I make it?" a still small voice inside of me simply says, "Calm down Brooke...You won't be alone.. I am coming with you. I love you and I will not leave you alone. I called you to Ohio and I will provide."
So..in a few days from today I will embark on my adventure..an adventure that I am fearful to make..however, I know that God wants me in that small country town in Ohio.