Saturday, January 1, 2011

Reflection

I can not believe we are now in the year 2011!!!
As I reflect over the past year so many words come flooding over me in which I could describe the year 2010. However, if I had to describe 2010 in one word I would chose the word:


LEAN


 I know, you are probably wondering how in the world a year could be described in such a word as lean, but let me explain.  I began the year 2010 as a second semester sophomore.  In the first month of school, I had computer problems, and temporary lost all of my note, reports, everything.  Another month past, and heart break came into my life.  As time went on, I saw some people that I loved and respected change.  And it hurt.  Time when on... I finished my sophomore year.  More time passed... I began my junior year in college.  I was required to take a class called, Articulatory Phonetics.  A class I knew I could never pass.  Time went on... people that I longed to see grow in the Lord, quit.  More time passed.  A child that I had grown to love over the past several years had serious thoughts of suicide running through his head.  More time passed... That little boy began having seizures. The doctors found scar tissue covering his brain.  More time passed... people that I invited out to church all year long never came...
Leaning is something I rarely do.  I am a very independent person; I like to do everything on  my own.  However in the year 2010, I began to learn to lean, ever so slightly on Jesus.  You know, no matter how hard I try I can't make it on my own.  Machines will fail me, my closest friends may fail me, but Christ Jesus promises me that He will never fail me.
In 2010 I leaned a little on Jesus.  And I watched Him work miracles.  Maybe in your eyes they may not qualify as miracles but to me they are miraculous.  I watched as Christ worked out everything just in time so I could get my reports off my troubled computer.  I watched as God filled the void I had in my heart, and gave me such peace that I had done the right thing.  As I leaned I saw that Jesus was the greatest friend ever.  As I continued to try to lean I saw that Jesus help me not only pass that extremely difficult class, but also help me to thoroughly enjoy the class and actually understand most of it.  By leaning on Jesus I was reminded that man will fail me.  People will hurt me, but Jesus never fails.  By leaning on Jesus I was reminded that Christ Jesus is the Great Physician and He can heal the broken hearted and the physical ill.  By beginning to lean on Jesus in 2010 I learned that leaning is the best way to live.  I now know that I cannot stand alone.  The very moment I stop leaning will the be the moment I fall.  In 2010 I began to learn to lean, and in 2011 I plan to continue to lean.

3 comments:

  1. Seems like you grew a lot this year, which is a very good thing!! You are a wonderful friend and beautiful young lady! I can't wait to see all that God has for you in the future! :) Love ya!

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  2. Loved this Brooke--Lean--what I need to do more and more--

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  3. That was beautiful Brooke. Thank goodness God has a special plan for us...we would certainly screw it up if we tried on our own. I, too, learned how much I needed Jesus every second of every day.

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